remorse

There is nothing you can do, achieve or buy that will outshine the peace, joy and happiness of being in communion with the partner you love.

I may disappoint you times and times and again. I may not fully make you happy when you're down or even cheer you up at times. I make mistakes everytime. Yes, who doesn't make mistakes, agree? I ever said never to expect much from me as i truly know myself that i'm not much of a perfect guy which you can ever find. I do give my very best to you, i do give what i think you want me to. And i know sometimes i don't at all. There's bound to be that moment where i'm like that. I can't even answer it myself why. Everyone has got their own foul mood at times, right? I do too. And its much of the wrong time usually. You know, when it comes to you, everything is a different thing. I can swear that i treated you very very different from anyone else you can think of. Because i felt that you deserved to be treated that way by me. Pampering. Thats number one. I just have the tendecy to right from the day i ask for your hand, to be my girl. I showered you with everything i could, thinking that i've yet to give enough. And from this, you slowly get used to it and show your side too as well. Apart form all the good stuffs and times we do, there's always the arguments, fights, and what do you wanna call it. And this, is the most irritating part of all in a relationship. Especially to mine and yours. I dislike it a lot and yes i really do. I'm always wanting to stop this matter asap as i think that there's not a need to have all this. Firstly, it will worsen the condition between us right? Secondly, will it even make ourselves better doing it? Thirdly, is it really worth it fighting? All those words that comes out form mine, and your mouth, do we actually mean it at first when we said all those? Its like when one is mad at the other, they'll just shoot out whatever that's on their mind definitely. Oh nono, the answer is yes, even if you did think before you speak. And its nature for us to argue back with one another because we just have the tendecy to. And after all this, there's the recalling of the incident trying to see what actually gone wrong and how you wish you didn't say those despite how angry you were, but some, don't at all.

Sorry. Heard this countless of times and i'm sure everyone will get sick and tired of hearing this right. But, if one is sincere and truly sorry about it, would you be able to forgive that someone? and how do you know when one is really sincere in saying so. I know if he or she says it to you right on the spot right after the quarelling and such, you wouldn't want to accept it. The thing is, its not just a saying of sorry. Its actually on how one says the word sorry. Im writing out all this and at the same time, telling the same things what i've wrote here. It do reflects on me too, yes.

I don't wanna see bits of changes anywhere. I don't want you to say all those as though things are gonna turn out a little ugly in future. I don't want you to change what you do always, be it regarding me or whatsoever. I know you don't really mean it deep inside. I know you don't. Deep inside, i know who you are. All i adk for, is for us to stop getting into little fights and be a our very best to each other. I'll be waiting....