endure

the holidays are finally and coming and i cant wait to head to KL, that is tmr. I've never actually been there so i'm kinda excited for it hahaha. What more going with my girlfriend and family. First overseas trip with them :)

Oh, and once im back, i'll be starting to work already and $$ definitely coming my way! I've been having thoughts of buying so much things already even before i start working hahaha.


I know i have to endure all these for the sake of love. Yes i love you and i'll tell myself from now that i shouldnt really care what you're doing especially when it hurts me when its an eyesore, just anything that can make me so mad as well. Guys. I know i have to let you have friends. True. I'll let you have some guy friends for now, cause basically you dont even have a good girlfriend you can talk, go out with. I understand that. And i hope, once you step into poly, there'll be some girlfriends that you can have and to spend time with. Cause i want to have a peace of mind, i wanna stop worrying i wanna know that YOU are doing stuffs with girls. You dont just spend time with guys cause you're comfy with them. But i know, you dont like it when i tell you all these. You dont like it when i stop you from talking to guys and entertaining them although its so so not right of you to do so. You do all these basically for fun sake, basically cause you love it and it makes you happy. I have to say i simply cant tolerate all these i simply cant stand abit of these nonsense at all, but what i can do. My words will only fell on deaf ears. I'll just make you hate me more if i talk to you about this right....

I've promise you ystd, and this time, i really make my promise to you on all these. I shall not intefere with your doings anymore and i will not, so you can trust me. I just hope one day, you'll finally realised that all these are just wasting your precious time and that you can do so much better things than these.

I'll love you the same...